“Salvation,” by Langston Hughes

Langston Hughes

By Alan Bean

I was deeply moved by this poetic essay by Langston Hughes.  That might seem odd to you.  Hughes could never get comfortable with religion, and Salvation gives us a big part of the reason.  My life and work has been shaped by a religious vision from the beginning.  Yet I find an important piece of my own spiritual biography in this story.

Unlike Langston Hughes, I never “went forward” in response to evangelistic appeals, although, to be honest, the churches of my childhood never worked that hard to get me to “the front”.  I was twenty-two when I was baptized.  By that time I realized that, for me at least, there would be no flashing light from heaven, no strange warming of the heart.  I went forward because I loved Jesus and wanted to serve him.

Hughes describes the evangelistic fervor of his childhood congregation with tender affection.  He loved these people and wanted to honor them.  The brand of “come to Jesus” socialization described in Salvation, while a formative influence in many American lives, can bear bitter fruit in the most honest and sensitive souls.  It has very little meaningful relation to the Jesus of the Bible, and it glamorizes a species of religious experience that is foreign to all but a few.

Social conformity and Christian discipleship are antithetical concepts.  At least they should be.

Only by staying in his seat could Langston Hughes have honored a God of truth and integrity; but that kind of courage is beyond the reach of even the most stalwart children.  Martin Luther King Jr., the man we honored yesterday, was able to remain in the Christian fold because he found  a Jesus, rooted in the prophetic biblical tradition, who understood his passion for justice.  The same goes for me.

Langston Hughes was not so fortunate.  But you’d never get a critique of old school evangelism this poignant from inside the community of faith.  Langston may not have know it, but his unswerving honesty was inspired by a gracious God.  Langston Hughes may never have found God (we’ll have to take his word for that), but read Salvation and you know God found Langston.  Maybe that’s all that matters.

Salvation

By Langston Hughes

I was saved from sin when I was going on thirteen. But not really saved. It happened like this. There was a big revival at my Auntie Reed’s church. Every night for weeks there had been much preaching, singing, praying, and shouting, and some very hardened sinners had been brought to Christ, and the membership of the church had grown by leaps and bounds. Then just before the revival ended, they held a special meeting for children, “to bring the young lambs to the fold.” My aunt spoke of it for days ahead. That night I was escorted to the front row and placed on the mourners’ bench with all the other young sinners, who had not yet been brought to Jesus.

My aunt told me that when you were saved you saw a light, and something happened to you inside! And Jesus came into your life! And God was with you from then on! She said you could see and hear and feel Jesus in your soul. I believed her. I had heard a great many old people say the same thing and it seemed to me they ought to know. So I sat there calmly in the hot, crowded church, waiting for Jesus to come to me.

The preacher preached a wonderful rhythmical sermon, all moans and shouts and lonely cries and dire pictures of hell, and then he sang a song about the ninety and nine safe in the fold, but one little lamb was left out in the cold. Then he said: “Won’t you come? Won’t you come to Jesus? Young lambs, won’t you come?” And he held out his arms to all us young sinners there on the mourners’ bench. And the little girls cried. And some of them jumped up and went to Jesus right away. But most of us just sat there.

A great many old people came and knelt around us and prayed, old women with jet-black faces and braided hair, old men with work-gnarled hands. And the church sang a song about the lower lights are burning, some poor sinners to be saved. And the whole building rocked with prayer and song.

Still I kept waiting to see Jesus.

Finally all the young people had gone to the altar and were saved, but one boy and me. He was a rounder’s son named Westley. Westley and I were surrounded by sisters and deacons praying. It was very hot in the church, and getting late now. Finally Westley said to me in a whisper: “God damn! I’m tired o’ sitting here. Let’s get up and be saved.” So he got up and was saved.

Then I was left all alone on the mourners’ bench. My aunt came and knelt at my knees and cried, while prayers and song swirled all around me in the little church. The whole congregation prayed for me alone, in a mighty wail of moans and voices. And I kept waiting serenely for Jesus, waiting, waiting – but he didn’t come. I wanted to see him, but nothing happened to me. Nothing! I wanted something to happen to me, but nothing happened.

I heard the songs and the minister saying: “Why don’t you come? My dear child, why don’t you come to Jesus? Jesus is waiting for you. He wants you. Why don’t you come? Sister Reed, what is this child’s name?”

“Langston,” my aunt sobbed.

“Langston, why don’t you come? Why don’t you come and be saved? Oh, Lamb of God! Why don’t you come?”

Now it was really getting late. I began to be ashamed of myself, holding everything up so long. I began to wonder what God thought about Westley, who certainly hadn’t seen Jesus either, but who was now sitting proudly on the platform, swinging his knickerbockered legs and grinning down at me, surrounded by deacons and old women on their knees praying. God had not struck Westley dead for taking his name in vain or for lying in the temple. So I decided that maybe to save further trouble, I’d better lie, too, and say that Jesus had come, and get up and be saved.

So I got up.

Suddenly the whole room broke into a sea of shouting, as they saw me rise. Waves of rejoicing swept the place. Women leaped in the air. My aunt threw her arms around me. The minister took me by the hand and led me to the platform.

When things quieted down, in a hushed silence, punctuated by a few ecstatic “Amens,” all the new young lambs were blessed in the name of God. Then joyous singing filled the room.

That night, for the first time in my life but one for I was a big boy twelve years old – I cried. I cried, in bed alone, and couldn’t stop. I buried my head under the quilts, but my aunt heard me. She woke up and told my uncle I was crying because the Holy Ghost had come into my life, and because I had seen Jesus. But I was really crying because I couldn’t bear to tell her that I had lied, that I had deceived everybody in the church, that I hadn’t seen Jesus, and that now I didn’t believe there was a Jesus anymore, since he didn’t come to help me.

6 thoughts on ““Salvation,” by Langston Hughes

  1. This subject hits close to home. The American christian culture advocates such individualism and success with programs like “The Blessed Life”. I grieve for those that blindly follow. Most are constantly working to please, to be successful,and to measure up. His yoke is easy and His burden is light. It is knowing God’s love for us that brings peace and rest, not hell, fire and brimstone or following 7 steps to personal fulfillment. When we are aware of His complete love and acceptance of us, as our cups are filled, they will run over to touch those around us.

  2. When I was baptized at age 15, I was not much concerned with heaven. I was only seeking to escape burning in hell, purchasing fire insurance, so to speak. My mother, who had never been baptized, went forward with me. There was great joy in that small town Baptist church revival. As people came by to greet and congratulate us at the front of the church, Mrs Chilcutt, 80, who lived on a neighboring farm, began leaping, thrusting one hand skyward and emitting piercing shouts. Later I was told that display was not unusual at revivals, but it was startling to me. Following this, I learned that some of my school mates were in the same Sunday School class I started attending. Those Sunday School classes are remembered as quite enjoyable.

  3. A lot of what happened in our culture fifty years or more ago could be labeled child abuse by our current culture. We must be careful not to judge our parents or our pastors of years gone by. For the most part, they had our best interests at heart. I was loved, by parents and pastors, not always wisely but always well. Modern child care may be abuse as well. A laissez faire attitude towards children does not serve them better than di the sometimes harsh methods of our ancestors toward their children.

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